I really feel as if i'm in a pressure cooker.
milli-degrees away from exploding.
There's so much of me that wants to give up, just throw all these out of sight and out of mind.
But in me, there's this part of me that doesnt want to give up.

School is really making me stressed up.
At the same time i'm learning so much in character.
Had i entered poly a year earlier,i would have given up.

I need to focus.
Keep my mind from wandering.
From thinking how nice it would be to give up.
Instead to channel all these energy to studying.

Went cy's hse today to do proj.
really fun there.
Den fion asked me last min if i wanted to watch Magic Box.
I hum and hor for very long.
Rushed there.
The seat were good ones=ex.
Magic box is nice!

I ought to be spending my time on more meaningful things,
but somehow blogging helps me to de-stress.
at a lost, not knowing what to do.
just can't help but feel stupid.