hello bloggie..
u've been missed.
so many times, i wanted to update you.. but i just dun noe where to start.
napfa wasnt a killer, even thou it's my first time failing it!
quite funny actl.
it is the aftermath that kills, sibeh pain siah!
TIRED seh.
yr 3 is no joke!
saw my CT results like late last night. nearly vomited.
but i must say that thank God i passed 5/6?
the paper that upset me the most was proteomics..
But before i remembered that the results was out..
actl heard saddening news of robin.
sometimes i really wish i can dun care anymore.
but each time something happens, i spend the whole night thinking and worrying about him.
i even screwed up my CT for him.. so he cannot die! no..no.
but i think it's time for me to let go of this matter, bec it's silly to put 100% when i know there's only so little i can do.
visited him for the last time at the hospital today, he shd be alright.
with this, good luck robin!
Also, the other 3 dogs.
the owner only wants to give to ppl he knows.
so yar, no point looking out for him anymore.
He put it very gently to me that shd there be no one taking them, he would rather put them to slp.
Harsh? not really. he explained that he was afraid that they would fall into wrong hands. which would have been worse, a slow death or a redundant but instant one?
cos if i rehomed them, who is going to be responsible for their well being? what if they were ill treated?
i would have to be responsible for another 7 years of my life??
initially i begged my mum for the 10 yr old silky.. but she was quite reluctant.
i know that if i pushed harder, i would be able to get my way.
but after thinking through, i decided not.
bec she said "why bother yourself with other ppl's problems?"
it reminded me of Jack Neo's movie "i'm not stupid".
where Selena Tan kept telling her plump son to mind his own business.
You may watch the show and think that that is so selfish and cowardly,
but i finally understand that there's some truth to it.
when it is other ppl's problem, the only person that can solve it best is they themselves.
if they create it, they solve it.
for e.g. my mum doesnt mind Robin. but i was quite reluctant, cos she wanted to house him outside the house first and we will probably have problems with HDB.
what is the best solution? for robin to be back with his owner; Robin would be the happiest dog alive.
with that, i actl helped to reunite a lost dog with it's owner ytd!
and it marks the end of this doggie business! well, at least until i am able to commit again! :)
so, right now..
notes+effort+concentration = results!~