Practicum will not be easy, and i'm bracing myself for it.
Have been having dreams (i actl mean nightmares) about school days.
I get awoken by them. Sucks.

Maybe it because my sub-conscious mind is reminding me to type this post which I've been putting off for months.
Did my first practicum in July.
It was quite hellish.
One important lesson which i painfully learnt from that experience and i will never ever ever forget.
Whatever your 'shi fu' does, doesn't mean you can do it either.
I don't know if they don't like what they are seeing or is it just because it is not protocol.

Only then did i realise how blessed i was to be in my contract school.
there were always kind words, encouragements and most importantly, help.
I never had been reminded that i should have known, learnt, etc,
and made to eat humble pies for breakfast, lunch and dinner.
I never felt so alone and scrutinized that it was like I was on a runway show.
it seemed like they were just waiting for me to make stupid mistakes and fall flat on my face.

well, i guess that's life.
it sucks. so one can either suck it up, or it sucks you dry.