Dealing with Disappointments

Of late, things have not been going that smooth.
There are many milestones which i would have liked to reached, but failed.
Dealing with the emotions that overwhelms oneself presents a different sort of challenge.
For one, I learnt that i have to acknowledge that feeling and not rub it off like a bad case of fleas.
I seldom feel this emotional about myself, so the feeling is strangely new and uncomfortable.

I had wanted to write about my crossover in the previous post, which i obviously did not do.
If i can sum it up my thoughts and feelings, i would like to simply say that i'm grateful for the opportunity that i otherwise would not have any means or drive towards this progression of higher learning.
I'm glad i got into the course of my choice.
I really enjoy what i'm learning and while i suck at it (my lousy grades), it keeps me in constant wonderment.
What am i grateful for? Being able to study for free (albeit the bond fees and being a societal burden for the next couple of years)


Not every bit of it is green and rosy.
I miss my friends whom i clicked and had so much fun with terribly.. to the extent that i wish these 2 years would go by quickly knowing very well the reality that would hit me then.
Well of course, i miss getting away with reasonably good grades despite a lack of effort. heh.
But this route is one that i'm very unsure of.
Deep inside, i'm petrified that I wouldn't be able to do a good job.

what will 2016 bring?
maybe the question i should ask myself is what will I bring about in 2016.